Posts Tagged ‘guilt’

January 6th, 2010 Remorse

I hurt a really good girl tonight. I benefited from her company and I let her start to love me and then I broke her heart and left threw her away because I am incapable of being human any longer. I don’t know what this means for me, but I will forever regret hurting such a good person and I can only pray that she will one day find the courage to forgive me and everything I have done for her. I thought that I would be driven to drinking heavily for this, but I have decided that I will bear the brunt of this current of guilt and pain, what little heart I had left she has taken with her, and even though it wasn’t enough to plant and grow a fertile love, it is enough for me to sit here in pain and take it and feel it and drown in it because what I did to her was not fair and I am garbage for doing what I did.

I don’t know what I have left inside, I don’t think anything.

K. Please forgive me. I never wanted to hurt you.

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