Archive for October, 2009
1. Whenever someone tells you that they and their husband just “Started a business” and they want to “have a meeting to discuss its details with people.” you should go running. Its a network marketing thing.
2. Never shave your face, balls and dick immediately before going off to the big show. Lest ye be vexed!
3. When she says shes only slept with 12 guys she forgot to mention she is cognitively dyslexic.
4. When you roll a joint of cannabis, please please please cut the cannabis with scissors or a grinder 1st don’t use clumps.
5. Stop eating at Wendys!
6. When playing Call of Duty, never reload in the doorway you fucking retard!
7. Sex without pain is like masturbating inside someone.
8. Videogames and gaming culture is sexy goddamnit!
9. knowledge is its own reward.
10. Chivalry isn’t dead. I got that shit on life support.
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October 13th, 2009 Twins
My nieceling. I don’t know who took the photograph, but Chloes expression is priceless on te left there. Cara might be pooping, I’m not sure.
lol
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October 12th, 2009 Ni # 3
So as far as I can figure it, most INFJs go through a sort of “keep to myself” thing for most of their lives. In my case I was extremely private and I don’t let many people into my inner world. As a result of this I had always been a really loner type, very stand offish, quiet, gentle but not a pushover. I also grew up kind of tough in some rough areas and that toughness is how you learn to survive without getting hurt. As a result of this I had very very few friends growing up. As I go into my 20s I basically cut out all of my friends and went completely isolated. Because of that I ended up relying heavily on my family for social interactions. It turns out that my family isnt exactly the best thing for me, as some of them tend to sabotage me out of jealousy or a need to control things.
So I have been rebuilding my social life the past year or so, once I broke away from my family, its like I am an entirely different person. My ENFP friend says I am projecting like an ENFJ or an ENTJ at times when I do things.
But its more than that I still feel very very introverted. But somehow I am able to now get over that and push myself into a situation I would have normally walked away from. Meeting new girls, or friends and making connections and putting myself out there. And I have been finding that people love me and want to be around me and it makes me feel good like I have something to offer. But still there is more to it than just that. Its like I don’t just see my friend or a person anymore, I see a network of connections and opportunities behind people. And I am not doing this intentionally somehow my mind is just picking this stuff up and storing it in my subconscious then making conscious connections to it. Its like my Intuition is really working over the relationships I am building and its not being dominated so much by emotion so much as curiosity at this point. And I am planning social interactions to depths I never did before and I can make predictions on how people will react to things and its coming true. I feel like I am standing on a ladder above a crowd and I am the only person with any overview of the situation.
Is this normal for an INFJ who is trying to be outgoing and extroverted? Are there any other INFJs who have gone from extreme isolation to extreme social butterfly status quickly?
I am having all these new wired feelings and I am trying to organize everything into some sort of system so I can manage it better but its just new to me.
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October 11th, 2009 Wanker
“Wanker” is coming down for a visit at my apartment. He hasn’t been here before, but its not a bad place despite its shortfalls. I hope he doesn’t mind me blowing smoke in his face, he used to be so against that. This will be funny.
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My brow glistened, shrink wrapped in a veil of sweat, “its august 4th” today I thought my nieces are being born and I am terrified. Terrified that my family will reject me, that I will be turned away from the hospital, that I would be excluded from the things that truly mattered to me. And I feel the detachment, the floating sense of intuition, judging, judging, analyzing, all. The moat of my psyche is its draw bridge drawn? Will I let them in if they did accept me, and wasn’t it funny how that was even more terrifying? Then what would I do? I just want to see my nieces, I just want, no need desperately for them to matter to me, to know my heart can hook into them and anchor itself to the notion of true family. It boils down to me never getting excited, never getting attached to anything except the rocks of my life, can I bring them in, can I do it immediately or do I have to pretend? I am so tired of pretending, the wellspring of my patience has dried up and I am so very tired of caring for other idiots little worlds. But this matters, this is my flesh, I want to be there and I want to be an uncle, In fact I want to be a great uncle, whatever that means. I know Colby will handle the true fatherly stuff, but, and I love him he is not the most intelligent man alive… He doesnt understand things, will he let me share my gifts with them? Or will he draw a line? I know they are only mine through my brother and sister in law, but will they allow me to have a personal loved relationship with them? To teach them help them grow into strong beautiful young intelligent and most importantly confident and competant women. I just want to protect them from all the genuine horrors life can offer, from the pain and hurt I felt. I was able to take it, and I want them to be strong enough to take it too, but I dont want them to experience that. How can I give them that? How can I give them that piece of myself and teach them to use that. I want them to have every advantage we never had. Every strength from Colbys charm and extravertedness to mine and Rickys silent resolve, force of will, and deepness of person. Shit the phone rang.
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